x_x

even thought ive lost my way
well keep looking for the place we sought for so long
even thought my tears are streaming
i will shine brightly 1day
even thought the past is gone but my heart still ache
will search past the boundaries for a place for my heart
what do i have to lose if we live to our limits
i wont throw away our dreams of tomorrow
if i have a reason to be sad i shall embrace my pain
as i passing through the seasons to another day
even thought ive lost our way
im never gonna stop pursuit my dream
i turned my back to someone kindness
because i wanted my loneliness to make me strong
one by one i wan to find everything that is hidden
on that day i will clumsily have to say goodbye
the time keeps on flowing by
but my thoughts have not changed
cause im never gonna stop pursuing my dream
when i lose my way ill turn back to the life i lived
but once i know the way ill start running towards it

Blood~

when u turn around who is that behind you
i am the one who will bury my claws in the darkness and shred the night
the place where the cricket cry in the forbidden forest
rain drops turn to drops of blood and trickle down your cheek
**crap duuno how to continue**
i shouldnt so emo to write those thing as someone mention to me
so i write a lovely thing before i sleep XD


the sweet days of summer slowly approaches spreading its gentle warmth
i wish you were here i like to share this feeling i have
i will hold these times of us together closely to my hard
these memories are far more precious than sparkling gems
let all of these moment bond us together always and forever
it will be protected by the sunshine of our happy days
if ever such ordinary days are meant to end
sprakling shining thats the way we all should be
smiling jus like this with you for all time
Dont cry, please listen to my words
Dont be afraid, because I wont do anything
i cry together with you for your sake
So please dont be so daunted
The sound of ur dropping tears is too noisy cause you cant hear my voice
I like you to stop crying for a little while
Because everything would be fine
Nevertheless ill hold my hands out to you
Please believe in me
I want to tell you, You shouldnt cry anymore

>.> new life

I am being strangled by the wind that surrounds me
I am searching for the long lost and forgotten seasons
How many cuts should I repeat?
How many fates should I accept?
Does it have an end?
I am always coursing through out every where in my memory and overflowing
That's why I'm not afraid of tomorrow
My beloved season calls me
Because I always feel new on me

**decide to stop bottom tread duuno how to continue= ="**

colors of my life

my heart crumbled in silence
even though I scream at being broken
ineradicable memories and darkness flow into my eyes
i was searching for the breath of sadness that to stain it in colors
without raising a sound
and I sink into tomorrow which colors cant even be seen anymore
i searched endlessly for the day of reconciliation
only for the sake of losing it
i will live for the present
Even when it is useless and I embrace solitude alone
i will shine towards them
feelings continuously filled with wishes which is someday create colors
thats what ive been taught
to be a person who continues to live with this in the heart
because colors are born within anything and everything inevitable
i will paint tomorrow once more with these hands
even the things which were placed into my hands slipped through my fingers
its all my fate i am gonna do that!

if light becomes stronger, darkness will also become deeper
even if I realized that, i have nothing to fear
because colors are born at the end of just about any kind of ending
my eyes are already open because we were gazing at each other


now the gentle colors which could not be reached
with these hands, i will use them to paint and fix everything again

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to be continue
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never cry !

alone in the darkness, i found out that meaning of your tears
i stepped out toward the place i wished for, but i don't wan to hurt anymore
today, the wind that crosses the ocean will blow straight toward tomorrow again
the waters surface will shows the path of the moon
the moon will softly taps your shoulder
it will makes you forget that you are confused
even if there is nothing waiting you for tomorrow
you still have hands that can make something
you can even change the fated path
but why can't your heart start moving
i wonder what fate awaits you
you shouldn't regret having been born
there is courage within sadness
i believe that you can find the light
tears of the blue sky,still falling
someday it will change into a smile
tears of blue sky,over flowing
the sky will be clear tomorrow
...build up your strong feelings

You~

time has been stand still for me
but a new journey is about to begin
we're given a new life as season change
we've reclaimed the strength that we lost
we abandoned out thought in this dizzying age
and have to completely forgotten everything
i could have meet you when everything falling apart
....i wouldn't have been all alone
so i take my love and affection face the sky
....and bury my tears in my heart
we'll be able to meet up again in the darkness
....deep in the depths of our pain

时间

时间。。。
“时间能让人忘记痛。。。”
对我来说时间只是让我慢慢的习惯痛！


记有句话是这么说的“认识一个人只要用一分钟，爱上一个人只要用一天，而忘记一个人却是要用上一辈子。请对你爱的人说：爱上你不后悔，那怕是用一生去痛苦，有那么一刻的开心已经很知足了，有些事本身就是一种无奈的，是难于选择的，你最后的选择未必是你心里所想的，只要我在你心里还是在那个重要的位置，那就已经知足了。

人生既选择，每当走到人生的十字路口的时候，你就要做出选择，有时你有权力去选择，而往往多数的时候都是身不由已，让你痛苦我很难过，有时真的希望时间可以洗刷掉这一切，心里总是很矛盾！

回忆生活中的每一刻的快乐总是会让自己越来越失去了忘记的勇气，越痛就会越爱！

不敢再把记忆随意的倒出来，但又不经意的想起了那段快乐的时光，回忆时脸上总是会挂着幸福的微笑，但一切破灭的时候，脸上总是湿湿的，这就是传说中相思的泪吗？伴随着泪水，心中隐隐在作痛，这一切的一切到底是不是我在做梦，情愿那只是一个梦，醒来的时候就不再痛了，但是这个梦似乎也太长太长了。。。

时间真的能让人忘记痛吗？不会的，除非生命结束了，也许精神还是在的。