Wednesday, February 25, 2009

x_x

even thought ive lost my way
well keep looking for the place we sought for so long
even thought my tears are streaming
i will shine brightly 1day
even thought the past is gone but my heart still ache
will search past the boundaries for a place for my heart
what do i have to lose if we live to our limits
i wont throw away our dreams of tomorrow
if i have a reason to be sad i shall embrace my pain
as i passing through the seasons to another day
even thought ive lost our way
im never gonna stop pursuit my dream
i turned my back to someone kindness
because i wanted my loneliness to make me strong
one by one i wan to find everything that is hidden
on that day i will clumsily have to say goodbye
the time keeps on flowing by
but my thoughts have not changed
cause im never gonna stop pursuing my dream
when i lose my way ill turn back to the life i lived
but once i know the way ill start running towards it

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Blood~









when u turn around who is that behind you
i am the one who will bury my claws in the darkness and shred the night
the place where the cricket cry in the forbidden forest
rain drops turn to drops of blood and trickle down your cheek
**crap duuno how to continue**
i shouldnt so emo to write those thing as someone mention to me
so i write a lovely thing before i sleep XD


the sweet days of summer slowly approaches spreading its gentle warmth
i wish you were here i like to share this feeling i have
i will hold these times of us together closely to my hard
these memories are far more precious than sparkling gems
let all of these moment bond us together always and forever
it will be protected by the sunshine of our happy days
if ever such ordinary days are meant to end
sprakling shining thats the way we all should be
smiling jus like this with you for all time
Dont cry, please listen to my words
Dont be afraid, because I wont do anything
i cry together with you for your sake
So please dont be so daunted
The sound of ur dropping tears is too noisy cause you cant hear my voice
I like you to stop crying for a little while
Because everything would be fine
Nevertheless ill hold my hands out to you
Please believe in me
I want to tell you, You shouldnt cry anymore

>.> new life

I am being strangled by the wind that surrounds me
I am searching for the long lost and forgotten seasons
How many cuts should I repeat?
How many fates should I accept?
Does it have an end?
I am always coursing through out every where in my memory and overflowing
That's why I'm not afraid of tomorrow
My beloved season calls me
Because I always feel new on me

**decide to stop bottom tread duuno how to continue= ="**

Monday, February 23, 2009

colors of my life

my heart crumbled in silence
even though I scream at being broken
ineradicable memories and darkness flow into my eyes
i was searching for the breath of sadness that to stain it in colors
without raising a sound
and I sink into tomorrow which colors cant even be seen anymore
i searched endlessly for the day of reconciliation
only for the sake of losing it
i will live for the present
Even when it is useless and I embrace solitude alone
i will shine towards them
feelings continuously filled with wishes which is someday create colors
thats what ive been taught
to be a person who continues to live with this in the heart
because colors are born within anything and everything inevitable
i will paint tomorrow once more with these hands
even the things which were placed into my hands slipped through my fingers
its all my fate i am gonna do that!

if light becomes stronger, darkness will also become deeper
even if I realized that, i have nothing to fear
because colors are born at the end of just about any kind of ending
my eyes are already open because we were gazing at each other


now the gentle colors which could not be reached
with these hands, i will use them to paint and fix everything again

---
to be continue
----

never cry !

alone in the darkness, i found out that meaning of your tears
i stepped out toward the place i wished for, but i don't wan to hurt anymore
today, the wind that crosses the ocean will blow straight toward tomorrow again
the waters surface will shows the path of the moon
the moon will softly taps your shoulder
it will makes you forget that you are confused
even if there is nothing waiting you for tomorrow
you still have hands that can make something
you can even change the fated path
but why can't your heart start moving
i wonder what fate awaits you
you shouldn't regret having been born
there is courage within sadness
i believe that you can find the light
tears of the blue sky,still falling
someday it will change into a smile
tears of blue sky,over flowing
the sky will be clear tomorrow
...build up your strong feelings

You~

time has been stand still for me
but a new journey is about to begin
we're given a new life as season change
we've reclaimed the strength that we lost
we abandoned out thought in this dizzying age
and have to completely forgotten everything
i could have meet you when everything falling apart
....i wouldn't have been all alone
so i take my love and affection face the sky
....and bury my tears in my heart
we'll be able to meet up again in the darkness
....deep in the depths of our pain

Saturday, February 21, 2009

时间


时间。。。
“时间能让人忘记痛。。。”
对我来说时间只是让我慢慢的习惯痛!


记有句话是这么说的“认识一个人只要用一分钟,爱上一个人只要用一天,而忘记一个人却是要用上一辈子。请对你爱的人说:爱上你不后悔,那怕是用一生去痛苦,有那么一刻的开心已经很知足了,有些事本身就是一种无奈的,是难于选择的,你最后的选择未必是你心里所想的,只要我在你心里还是在那个重要的位置,那就已经知足了。

人生既选择,每当走到人生的十字路口的时候,你就要做出选择,有时你有权力去选择,而往往多数的时候都是身不由已,让你痛苦我很难过,有时真的希望时间可以洗刷掉这一切,心里总是很矛盾!

回忆生活中的每一刻的快乐总是会让自己越来越失去了忘记的勇气,越痛就会越爱!

不敢再把记忆随意的倒出来,但又不经意的想起了那段快乐的时光,回忆时脸上总是会挂着幸福的微笑,但一切破灭的时候,脸上总是湿湿的,这就是传说中相思的泪吗?伴随着泪水,心中隐隐在作痛,这一切的一切到底是不是我在做梦,情愿那只是一个梦,醒来的时候就不再痛了,但是这个梦似乎也太长太长了。。。

时间真的能让人忘记痛吗?不会的,除非生命结束了,也许精神还是在的。

Thursday, February 19, 2009

*Wink*

whats graduation ceremony~
it is very simple not what as "u" tot!!!!
the 'u' refer to ELWY

*definitely a day FULL of GREETING*

*YA teddiesssss!*

*A HEAVY LUXURY MEAL*

*not forgetting... FLOWERSSS!!! IT IS SO ESSENTIAL SO THAT I CAN SHOW OFF*

*definitely YES NOT KEK WA =..=*

Monday, February 16, 2009

who am i ?

Who am I? Who are you? Who is he? Who is she?

This seemingly simple question, it seems will never be easy answers. Each of us find ourselves in the position in our life, but I believe that, even if you find your position in life, you will raise up the question mark time to time to your own and Ive had been mark it as "question day!"

I, You, We they are similar whose not voluntarily come to this world, but I always hope that we can become our own, that is, some day we can go according to our own desires to live. Never say it is impossible even if the past you weren't, The future you will always have such a day.

*I am looking forward to the arrival of this little day too*

Although sometimes, I have always been asking myself"Who am I", this seemingly simple question is a superior difficult for everyone but Fortunately, most of the time, I still can go through it. :)I do not know is there everyone are same as me? I really envy those peoples who always remain sober-minded, I envy them because I will never succeed on it. Meanwhile, I always desperate for those thing which do not belong to me.

Monday, February 9, 2009

抛柑



据说马来西亚的元宵节有这样一种风俗,城中男女要往河边抛柑觅良缘,寻找有情人,而抛柑已成为马国元宵节一项主要的活动。元宵节是当地华人传统的情人节,许多未婚男女都会到湖边或海边抛柑、抛蕉,希望可娶个好老婆或能嫁个好老公。抛柑的典故来自最早期的一首福建歌谣,这首歌谣这样唱:抛柑嫁好老公、抛苹果娶好老婆、抛花生吃到老、抛石头就起洋楼。

Friday, February 6, 2009

如水?等?努力?



期待過我們似細水
可惜蒸發出眼淚
明白你最近有些暫時伴侶 偷一刻午睡
彷彿專一使你極空虛
懷疑被你抱著我念著誰
無論你再好 亦捨得失去

難過亦過難道我
嫌損失未夠多
早放手可減輕痛楚
不等泡沫給吹破
不想去知誰填補我
無悔在我還是我
任你多麼差錯
無謂去追問為何
深知告別損失非我
讓情人離別
似水清洗我

原諒你對著我說謊
出於好意的作狀
明白你最近已經避談近況
早不敢寄望
心中早把相愛如觀光
情如瀑布瀉下也未驚慌
心境已 隨著那水花得到釋放

難過亦過難道我
嫌損失未夠多
早放手可減輕痛楚
不等泡沫給吹破
不想去知誰填補我
無悔在我還是我
任你多麼差錯
無謂去追問為何
深知告別損失非我
讓情人離別
似水清洗我

難過亦過難道我
嫌損失未夠多
早放手可減輕痛楚
不等泡沫給吹破
不想去知誰填補我
無悔在我還是我
任你多麼差錯
無謂去追問為何
深知告別損失非我
讓情人離別
似水清洗我

心中有漣漪吹過
又回到最初
平靜去做我

Thursday, February 5, 2009

您的长发

有人说,头发是女人的性感工具;也有人说,头发是女人的根;还有人说,头发是女人的第二张脸……
能不能让我再睇那么的一次
能不能温柔的抱您一下
让我变成大漠飞舞的狂沙
请您把您的眼神把我风化
这辈子我注定要浪迹天涯
独自承受风吹雨打为您遮风挡雨
我的心就如那高耸的大厦
日复一日我都会在梦中牵挂着您
您的长发还是最美的

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

前世今生

都说前世500次的回眸
换来今生的擦肩而过
我不知道我们前世有多少次回眸
但我知道这个数字一定不能在有限集里面找到
茫茫网海
我们相遇了
相识了
相知了
而且成了不可多得的知己
这要前世多少次的回眸
今生才能达到的
我们认识时间不长
但有一种相见恨晚的感觉
我们无话不谈
聊的很投机忘记了时间
不知不觉心里时时记着您
几天不聊
心里就会有一种淡淡的思念和牵挂

Sunday, February 1, 2009

dont let it go~

The wind makes the flowers dance
The rain moisturizes the earth
Everthing in this world depends on each other to survire
Why do people hurt each other?
Why are there separations?
Even if you travel far away
You will always remain right here in my heart
My heart will always be filled by that sweet smile of yours
I hang on tightly to that fragment of you
Even i felt hurt
We are still connected together
I believe that
We will meet again
I'm waiting for your love
I LOVE YOU
I TRUST YOU
I want to share your loneliness
Be it the day or the night
We can trust each other if it's only two of us
SO, PLEASE DONT LET GO

Thursday, January 29, 2009

黑暗的新年

本来打算同您讲下我这几日的行程
但您睇落好忙呢
哈哈我都系废事喇
转眼间新年的几日假期就过了
都唔知系充实定堕落
星期六
-架车返屋企
-跑得好快啊 180-190km/h
-当然一下子就到喇
-晚上时同朋友一起出来饮野
-Al-Fresco _|_又贵又热虽然多女仔睇但无心情
-到12点时,朋友竟然问我有spa吗?
-然后4条粉肠傻傻地去左Ansoka Spa
-我心想(吊囖!鸡窦= =“)
-然后冲下凉,出下汗(Sauna)
-就去全身按摩
-条中国妹一直摸大腿(听落好享受?X_X)
-她其实要赚外快
-我有无落火坑呢?(答案系无)
-点解超累,条女好鬼丑样,为自己银包打算 (^_^V)

星期日
-吃团圆饭(一年比一年少人-得返4个人)
-唉。。。吃完了快快出去喝茶
-第2次出来饮茶时计划去麦记
-点知劲多人
-无端端朋友小便时
-裤拉链坏左(爆胎=..=)
-载他返去再出黎麦记
-都懒得排队买野吃/饮
-然后就回去喇

星期一
-晚上载左了好多人
-去酒吧街
-揾到地方就坐落来
-本来打算叫啤酒的(经济嘛!!)
-点知朋友叫我买烈酒
-唉。。虽然有少少不愿意算吧
-当然又系我付费XD
-饮下饮下全部人都high high地(朋友好多花样喇-开始搞笑)
-无端端见一大堆人拖住凳/桌
-一个开车拿刀
-冲到我坐的那间pub
-推一个人然后骂“妈架hai”
-刀光剑影,我只好像以前那样
-企起身拿起我的Swing(摇摇摆摆的烈酒瓶)
-然后慢慢步开这个是非地
-朋友个个问我你好像对这d野好惯喇
-我都系回头一笑

星期二
-最后一晚
-今日到Ipoh(山城)
-架车去一个钟头左右
-那边出名什么当然系山(开玩笑!)
-开玩笑还开玩笑那边真的好多山洞(拜神)
-除左山,芽菜鸡〉劲出名
-还有每次人人话Ipoh多靓女(点解我都唔觉)
-中午到左去睇赤壁(麻麻地=..=)
-晚上本来打算去唱k的
-但朋友忽然间发癫要到d比较唔正常的地方唱k
-打了好多电话然后靠关系拿到一间夜总会的房
-一进到时见到个个在吸软性毒品(K粉,fing头丸,大麻,废仔)
-一时间接受不到但又不抗拒(以前睇惯了)
-他们索索下k粉尽然话闷就叫妈咪来
-每个人都有中国妹陪坐(我都有,被逼的)
-都无什么理他们因为好无聊
-我从来不唱k都一直唱(因为希望d中国妹唔好搞我)
-都过得平平安安(^_^V)
-去小便时那个中国妹尽然无端端强吻我
-我好奇怪喇一定有野的
-她原来含住粒丸仔吐给我
-搞得我差d欧出来(啃到= =)
-但都无一点点感觉难道我的身体已经免疫这些东西?
-然后在一点时我一直吵要走
-因为我银包就要空了= =”
-里面东西超贵呢
-酒价系外面的两倍(新年价两倍唔系玩啊!!)

星期三
(你都训左听日继续写吧 Goodnight!)同自己讲呢我几时变那么废!

蝶戀



毕竟只是无可厚非的暧昧
就尽情的停在那瞬间
有的只是精彩可期的遇见
就放任伪装之中浪费
拥抱不再足够掩埋痴的漩
就想尽办法收藏入柜
亲吻不再限于灵魂的沉醉
就不要疑惑放下成见
层层迭迭 倦倦恋恋
想的脸 香的味
缠缠绵绵 时近时远
愚人的罪 欲望颓废
看见 听见 永恒的恋
转眼 瞬间 蝶飞不见
毕竟只是无可厚非的暧昧
就尽情的停在那瞬间
有的只是精彩可期的遇见
就放任伪装之中浪费
拥抱不再足够掩埋痴的漩
就想尽办法收藏入柜
亲吻不再限于灵魂的沉醉
就不要疑惑放下成见
层层迭迭 倦倦恋恋
想的脸 香的味
缠缠绵绵 时近时远
愚人的罪 欲望颓废
扯下无私的沉默语言
就这样跳入火圈
见缝插针的分寸不见
就分裂 分裂的随便
哎....
层层迭迭 倦倦恋恋
想的脸 香的味
缠缠绵绵 时近时远
愚人的罪 欲望颓废
层层迭迭 倦倦恋恋
想的脸 香的味
缠缠绵绵 时近时远
愚人的罪 欲望颓废
看见 听见 永恒的恋
转眼 瞬间 蝶飞不见
哎....不见

Friday, January 16, 2009

闹钟



沉默夜
我长期的睡眠做梦
不能停止的恐惧
因为吞噬的声音在我耳边准备尖叫
在我梦幻国度里
加上另人陶醉的的摇篮曲
我在自己的空间内徘徊着
尖叫的怪物
呼唤我的名字
拉扯着我到残酷的炼狱
请让我呆着吧
因为我将永远不足够强大
因为我将永远不够好
在我每一个肢体约束我到极限中解放出来的恐惧
将盖过我所留过的眼泪
累将燃烧我的内心深处
但我必须和它斗争
如果不是我将无法超越自己

Monday, January 12, 2009

难忘记

一个人实在太多事情难忘记
难忘记梦境离别时您的温柔
难忘记在MSN的告白
难忘记您寄风思的歌声
难忘记您仿佛百年孤寂的情感
难忘记您一个人默默地支撑着自己
原来,有些人,你越想忘记越难忘记。。。
回来意味着一段旅程的结束
却预示着另一段旅程的开始
我不知道我是因为不甘心而无法释怀
我们永远不会知道未来会发生些什么
然而过去的投入已深深刻入了我的记忆
成为我生命中的一部分

亲戚到

记得某年某日
见到您的msn
放亲戚到X。X
我以为您月经到
然后假好心叫您小心点
唔可以饮冻野
OMG点知原来系星加坡亲戚到
让我带上变态这个罪名X。X

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

够了

不写了
晚了
累了
要睡了
再见了

面具










其实是不是每个人都有一个面具
在适当时戴上
人其实在面具低下才最真
因为我们一方面希望人真诚的对待我们
但又非常的希望操控别人
希望每人让我们牵着走
真的很矛盾
我觉得唔错
但许多时候
我们带面具真的隐藏着
很多痛苦
很多不快乐
很多苦衷
很多不愿意
我真的想不到,我竟然也会玩工作政治,唉。。。做又难唔做也难!

瓶子









将一个瓶子
装满笑语
装满祝福
装满思念
装满泪水
然后将它抛向大海
带着一切
随处漂洋
不知何处
心情不知道会不会轻飘飘呢?
本来今日有野要同你讲的
听到一个人介绍工作
但可能去比较远
呵呵见你唔得闲我只好落msn
自己和自己讲吧XD

喃喃自语

爱上一个人喃喃自语
可能无人值得我相信
可能我生成就不交际
可能我也懒得去应酬

是错是对?好怕人家讲我傻~!

人生的路
不算坎坷
也不算好走
就像挂在半空中
我其实很怕高
我并没有什么力量
但我深深知道
出来社会的我
是一个人的
什么事情都要自己挨
这是需要成功的成长的痛苦吧?

角色

眼眶泛起泪光-似乎无人察觉
在你欲试之际-我已悄然挥去
兴奋之时-我不在您身旁
失落之时-必有我在您旁
欢呼-为您所渡过的每个艰难
喜悦-因您坚持不懈绝不沁头
牵起您双手
深望你双眼
轻轻对你说
我好开心
因您在我生命中扮演好重要的角色

角色

眼眶泛起泪光-似乎无人察觉
在你欲试之际-我已悄然挥去
兴奋之时-我不在您身旁
失落之时-必有我在您旁
欢呼-为您所渡过的每个艰难
喜悦-因您坚持不懈绝不沁头
牵起您双手
深望你双眼
轻轻对你说
我好开心
因您在我生命中扮演好重要的角色

风








风
它让我时冷时暖
但我只能无奈
因为我摸不到
只能用感觉来感受
站在原地静静的等待
它的到来
天气热的时候
多希望有阵凉风伴着我
天气冷的时候
多希望吹来的是一阵暖风
但是我们无法预测天气的发生
追逐,自己好累
停留得不到一切
但为了这一切
无法停下我的脚步
看着捉摸不到的风
只希望奇迹的发生
让它倒吹吹向我。
不能停止
好累-眼泪在流
跌了-血流不止
还是无法停止
为了将来
这一切我坚持
因为我爱上了一阵风
您真的太难捉摸了

????



是爱?是傻?
是痴?还是醉?

Friday, January 2, 2009

目标

(正当我伸出我双手想捉住您的梦想我会......)

我将用我的心的全部力量
来呼唤您支持您鼓励您
然后不管有多少人伤害我
我会承受全部的痛苦

当我从梦中唤醒
我意识到我只剩一步未到
阳光渐渐的衰落
一副墙壁出现在我的前面
我仍然继续运做
一切靠我自己
直到我可以看到梦想实现
我们之间将建立一片天
让天将我推回给您

正如我让我的孤独侵犯自己
不管我做错多少次
我会用谎言来欺骗自己
因为我知道这是我的“最后一个爱”
我明白自己该为自己计划什么目标
让您和我,让我们一起

Thursday, January 1, 2009

冻~









在这个冬天
告诉您这个冬天其实并不寒冷
给您目光温暖着心灵
给您一句深长的祝福和关心
告诉您人生其实并不独单
您以您特有的心灵感悟着世界 
我以我特有的方式感悟着您
我勤奋播种着种子
让您小小的心灵的世界开满了花朵
让幸福长成了一片绿荫
最后补上一句穿厚一点别冻到

无题

無題,因為無心
不能随写,因為心乱
無心該如何心乱?
情早已应该隨心而清
心也早已隨著而寧

生命

当一切结束了以后
一切只剩下自己。
所谓的成功
所谓的失败
所谓的快乐
所谓的失落
不过是生命过程中的昙花一现
似是璀璨亮丽的流星划过天际
只留下刹那消逝的尾巴
离与别之间的距离
可以是漫长的
可以是短暂的
所谓的漫长
所谓的短暂
不过是人类认知领域中的长和短
对于运转了数百万载的世界
不过是一刹那